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string me up, because they haven't killed me yet
I've been trying to drown myself for seven years
now I'm done trying to breathe fresh air
I haven't learned, so they can punish me one more time
not much has changed.
it's better off this way
I'm deaf to the sound of reassurance
I can't love the person I've become.
it feels like I'm falling in slow motion
what difference will it make, if I stay down?
not much has changed.
it's better off this way
this is not the lowest I can go
watch me fall, watch me drown
this is not the lowest I can go
watch me fall, watch me drown
bury me in broken promises.
bury me in broken promises.
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This Is Over
02:56
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I'm done pretending this is normal.
I've lied to myself for too long.
everything has changed for the worse.
burn it down. this is over.
I can't live with what we've become.
not one more day.
I can't live with what we've become.
not one more day.
everyone said that we'd do better.
too buried in our grief to realize,
that we didn't help at all.
pull the plug. Let it die.
I can't live with what we've become.
not one more day.
I can't live with what we've become.
not one more day.
this is over.
this is over.
we've wasted years by now.
so set a fire at our feet.
we can burn along with what is left.
raise a glass. let's toast the end of it all.
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Nothing Left
02:59
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fuck this and fuck you.
I've failed for the last time.
I'm done. we're done.
pour one out for my great excuse.
this is where we found our separation.
leave me here on the floor where I belong.
I can't remember why, I gave a fuck enough to try.
I can't remember why I looked inside, there's nothing left alive.
stand up! hands up!
let's cheer on slow suicide.
eyes down! eyes down!
pretend you didn't see the signs
I figured this is where we'd end up some day.
a perfect end to pointless fucking charades.
I can't remember why, I gave a fuck enough to try.
I can't remember why I looked inside, there's nothing left alive.
raise a fist, raise a glass - pretend there's nothing wrong.
I'm looking but I can't find a reason to pick myself up.
you ignored obvious signs - something that can't be repaired.
light it up, raise a shot - pretend there's nothing wrong.
I've got nothing left
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Manufactured Guilt
04:14
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we are not lost souls
there is nowhere but right here.
there's no apologies for existing.
the world gives power to men of history.
so we're taught to be scared to look outside.
they called it sin
we're carrying manufactured guilt.
trying to squeeze the blood from stone.
too afraid to admit this is a fairy tale.
but we don't have to keep this up.
they called it sin
there was a time when I spent my nights in the good book.
every Sunday I was in his house. I kept my knees bent.
I thought if I gave up control, then I'd be pulled out of the shadow.
I followed along, because I needed so much help.
I never heard a fucking voice. I never saw anything change.
I never heard a fucking voice. I never saw anything change.
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there was never enough time.
there was never enough time.
there was never enough time.
there was never enough space to be myself.
for all my doubts, you never failed to pull me along, with a smile.
there's a better side to me, after all.
it's last call.
let's knock these back.
push out to California, and let these bastards know we'll shut this shit down
this will be the last time I try to get this right.
if it all falls apart tomorrow, then I'm glad I failed with you.
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we have high ideals, but do we follow through?
there's no support when all we have are words.
this is the one place, where we don't have to fight.
it looks more and more like everywhere else.
who do we think we are
who do we think we are
to define love
to define love
this was supposed to be a home some never had.
it's the same house with different paint.
your prejudice creeps in with every fucking joke.
you use slurs, as if no one has died.
who do we think we are
who do we think we are
to define love
to define love
do we make things better?
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Foreign Concepts
04:11
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right now I'm just thinking out loud, so if you'll indulge me..
everything that I have loved has become irrelevant. there's nothing to this.
do feelings mean anything without the words to give them voice? (no one is listening.)
do feelings mean anything without the words to give them voice? (no one is listening.)
there's no more sitting on the front porch; empty cans and stamped out cigarettes.
you left the window open - now all the dirt, the filth, your lies have blown into my house.
I can't admit how much this hurts - where the fuck did I go wrong?
you took me for granted but I never tried to hold you back.
we gave up all we were - ten years wasted on a lie.
I never knew how hard it would be to start over. I wish I could change it all.
everything I have tried has blown up in my face. I'm done. I'm done with this.
it's so much better just to move on. close the curtain on all we had.
In the face of betrayal, I held my ground.
and that scared you away.
faith, loyalty, forgiveness
these are foreign concepts to me..
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I Failed Again
04:03
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the moment I looked away is the moment I let you down.
you let your pain become what you love.
everyone leaves here, so you should too.
I know I should have let it go.
you need something I don't have.
I know I should have let it go.
you need something I don't have.
there was a time when I thought
I would be good enough for you.
you told me this isn't what I want.
I should have listened from the start.
I know I should have let it go.
you need something I don't have.
I know I should have let it go.
you need something I don't have.
I know I should have walked away.
I'll never lose my place again.
I know I should have walked away.
I'll never lose my place again.
I know this isn't fair.
you never asked for this.
It's not your fault I can't understand.
I failed again. I failed again. I failed again.
there's only so much patience that I'll expect from you.
I'll try to hang on with a smile.
everything else has worked against this.
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Plague Mind Seattle, Washington
est. 2021.
hardcore from the West coast, with members from Love Is Red, Sinking Ships, With Honor, and Betrayed.
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